I find this painting fascinating. It's from a mural by Laura Blaker in a restaurant here in Sioux Falls called Hu Hot. The Pink Horse is injured, has his eyes closed, yet he demonstrates great humility, a sense of non self. For me, he is not facing death, and will actually be getting up and going quite soon. He's only pausing.Yesterday evening Ron and I were here in his hospital room, alone for the first time in almost two weeks. We finally connected, stayed connected, and were able to talk about what has happened and where we hope to be heading. But yesterday morning was quite frightening ... fluid on his lungs, swelling on his face, and an elevated fever. By the time he went to sleep last night, all three issues were resolved.
Being able to handle the ups and downs of this event is my greatest challenge ... and when I am able to do so, the humility finds its way to me and I can believe, once again, that we will leave here together. And that it's not about me and it's not even really about him. It's about pausing.
Dear friend, you are doing a wonderful job of being where you are, this moment. Love is the most powerful healing agent, in my opinion, and you have that in abundance for Ron; it will also help your own heart's healing. This is a trauma to both of you. If it's anything like our time in the ICU and recovering from surgery, you have your hands full taking care of the things that the hospital staff is too busy to do, and helping Ron to feel as much "at home" as possible in a foreign environment.
ReplyDeleteThe image of the horse is lovely. I like what you see in it. You are together, pausing, regrouping. You are surrounded by Love (just look at the staff, your family & friends), and it is alive in both of you. God bless you every step of the way.
I agree with Karen.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great post. I love the pausing.....
Well wishes coming from my home to you both.
Laurie, you are a wise woman.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes - this is definitely an unexpected turn in the road for you both - and the path you're on has not been comfortable or expected, but you've handled it beautifully. So, after the pause, will come a fresh beginning for you and Ron in many ways.
Blessings and Peace to you both... and continued recovery for Ron.
Laurie, I've only now caught up with your blog. I wish you and Ron the best. I'm so sorry you've been going through all this, but I think you're on the right track with your perceptions of the horse. :)
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